November 5

Oh little one. All the things I wanted to say to you that you never got to hear. All the hugs and kisses and snuggles that we never got to share. How I have missed you every day since the day you left us, one year ago.

You were so very tiny then. No one but your daddy and I knew you were even here. But from the moment we first knew, we showered you with love. We dreamed about you.

So many times I have wondered what it would be like if everything had gone as we planned. You would be somewhere around 6 months old now. Laughing. Gurgling. Rolling around.
We are sad today.

We miss holding you. We miss hearing you cry. We miss your chubby hands and legs. We miss you, but we know it won’t be for forever.

And yet you left us with so much. You left us with hope. You left us with the dream of meeting you in heaven. You left us and your brother or sister was able to join our family.

Your life was not meaningless. It was all too short. Not a day has gone by where we haven’t thought of you. We are so thankful for the few weeks you were able to share with us.

We celebrate your birthday today. It came many months too early. But we know that your tiny life is as special and wonderful as any. And we praise God that He took you to be with Him - where we will see you someday.

Don’t worry, I will know your face. I will know your voice. And on that day, I will run to hold you...for the first time...in my arms.