New appreciation

I have not been well. Kidney infections are very unpleasant things. I would take antibiotics the rest of my life if it meant I wouldn't get another one. As I said on Monday, when things go from bad to worse, you often look back and wish for the bad. What I have come to realize is that nothing is as bad as being ill - very ill.

In some odd way I feel like superwoman because I just went through three full days of utter and complete misery. We're talking unrelenting pain. The kind you can't just stretch and relieve, the kind you can't medicate enough for, the kind that you can't even sleep through, the kind that doesn't allow you to eat food. I have had pain before - I'm not a stranger to it. But never have I gone through something like this, much less days of it!

I was driving to work this morning and I was in awe of how beautiful everything is. The trees are glorious. Children running are adorable. Grass blowing in the breeze is refreshing. Sunshine dancing off of cars is bright and cheerful. And sitting in my car, doing the simplest thing, without pain, is a wonderful, wonderful thing. I have a new appreciation for this thing called life. Not because I almost lost mine, but because I lost all enjoyment of it. To live even a day without pain is a blessing I don't count often enough.

As a side note, my Hubby is amazing. I knew this before, but I saw it in action. He did a fantastic job of taking care of me and doing everything in his power to make me feel better. I can't tell you how blessed I am to have him in my life. Truly its something I did not earn or deserve.